"Humanity is slowly shutting down" - Jesse Hasek, 10 Years

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Flat-lines and Fireflies

Every idea has run out of steam.

Every single snippet of literary wonder that I willed into existence is now stagnant and dull.

Every last word I have written down has slowly been losing my interest.

And yet, I still call myself a writer.

I guess I can't really call myself a writer, after all. It is said that the best writers are the best readers. If that is true, than I am no writer, by any stretch of the word. Seldom does a book catch my attention and hold me firm in it's grasp.

Then, if I'm not a writer, than I propose that I am story-teller. Ideas constantly flit back and forth like fireflies in the verdant garden of my mind, taunting my imagination and coaxing me into catching them and showing off their glow for all to see. A few have been caught, and they shone brightly for a short while. Then, just as quickly as they were caught, they were released back into the garden, where they would rest and recuperate until they were ready to be captured again.

Right now, the glass jar is empty. But I still cradle it gently in my arms, waiting for the next lone firefly to wander across my sight. As I wander within the dark forest of my mind, my eyes, my ears, my soul, they all keep vigilant watch for the one spark of light amongst the darkness. 

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

To Write a Compelling Character Background. . .

Just a little something I've been working on. A new character concept, set in the land of Tamriel of Elder Scrolls fame. Any feedback would be appreciated! Thanks!



Sythril Valynor Everex, a pure-blood Altmer, or high elf, was born into a life of comfort and ease in a small village on Summerset Isle in the Fourth Era, Year 22. Growing up secluded from the political turmoil that was generated by the Thalmor, his childhood years were bearable and enjoyable, despite the untimely death of his father. His father and his namesake, Valyn Everex, had fought in the Oblivion Crisis, and he was part of the army that launched the final attack on the Great Gate that opened in the shadow of the city of Bruma. He was later honored as the 7th Champion of Cyrodiil and the Archmage of the Imperial City Mage’s Guild. Tragically, he was murdered shortly afterwards by Imperial extremists. The murderers were never brought to justice. His father being a strong and wise man, Sythril took after his example, and always honored his promises, even those that would inhibit him. He also exhibited a natural affinity for magic, as his father had, and even though most Altmer tended to, his mother took notice of his special ability. When he reached his adult years, the age of 110, he was conscripted into the Aldmeri Dominion to serve as a mage-servant, and he left his hometown for the first time in his life. Excited and wide-eyed, he pursued this chance with his entire mind.  
He worked endless on his studies and the elder mages observed as he rose to the top of his class. Though he found little time for socializing, he was satisfied in the magical knowledge that he had obtained. Because of his rigorous attention to his studies, the mage council of the Thalmor gave him the honor of serving the head magi, Aeron Everstar, in the army. He would work alongside him in his studies and he would witness the coming war with the Imperial armies. Though he was hesitant to the idea of fighting in a war, he gladly accepted the offer.  
                Working with a head mage couldn’t have been more satisfactory. He received first-hand advice on spells and potion-making, and Aeron taught him the powerful magic of Conjuration. Sythril even managed to teach himself the fineries of archery in what free-time he cultivated. Having down time meant the world to Sythril, and he relished the time spent without worry.
                On 4E 171, Sythril and his master received word that the Aldmeri Dominion planned to attack the Imperial armies of Cyrodiil. Sythril immediately became tense and worried about how the coming battles would go. Calm and reserved, his master helped to satiate Sythril’s nerves, and he managed to turn Sythril into a calm force of magical prowess. Master Aeron, he soon learned, was not necessarily a head mage. The head mages led the units that laid siege upon the cities with magical fire and fierce storms. His master, however, worked as a search and destroy unit. Aeron was highly skilled in illusion magic, and could render himself invisible with relative ease. Using his powerful magic, they were to silently proceed into the heart of Cyrodiil and after eliminating some key figures in the Imperial military, meet up with the army that would arrive soon after. However, their plans didn’t’ go off without a small hitch. Sythril and Aeron were moving through the thick Blackwood Jungle under the protection of their invisibility veil, making their way towards the highlands east of the Imperial city. However, they were ambushed by a group of Khajiit renegades, wielding fierce hand axes and swords. Despite the veil, they were able to pinpoint Sythril and his master through the unnerving sense of smell. Fortunately for Sythril and his master, they were oblivious to the destructive force of magic. They continued down their desired path ten minutes later, with the smoke from burning fur rising high into the darkening sky.
                When they reached the city in the year 173, Sythril and Aeron managed to secure a safe haven, and while his master was away on his assassination missions, Sythril perused the town, curious to see why the Thalmor hated these people so much. The normal, high-and-mighty attitude of his brethren didn’t make sense to him. A part of him felt sorry about what would soon befall the city. Part of him wished he could stop the oncoming attacks. But he knew his attempts would quickly be rendered useless.
                In the year 174, the battle for the Imperial city began, and Sythril understood why he had felt the way he did, and why he suspected that the Aldmeri Dominion had a hidden agenda with this war. He watched helplessly as vicious fire rained down across the city, burning down the mortar and stone houses. He heard screams for mercy erupt into the sky as many were burned alive in the cascading buildings. He even watched as the Thalmor relentless murdered other Altmer, who lived in seclusion in the Elven Gardens district of the Imperial city. Disgusted with the blatant cruelty of the Aldmeri Army, he fled the Imperial City, seeking refuge in the Nordic mountain city of Bruma. The rugged mountain city had been one of the few cities to remain untouched by the Thalmor’s initial onslaught. They were not, however, without caution, as Sythril noticed plenty of guards posted along the parapets. Outside the gates, he noticed a roughly hewn statue covered in a permanent layer of permafrost. Parts of the statue littered the ground, and the image of a once great hero stood dejected and ignored. As he brushed away the snow that was covering the name plate, he reeled. The name plate read: Valyn Everex. While he couldn’t recognize the statue as his father, he felt a sudden rush of pride well up inside of him. Shedding a few tears, he proceeded into the city with elation cultivating in the pit of his stomach.
Immediately, he was detained by the gate guards, and taken to see Countess Narina Carvain. In a “private” audience accompanied by eight Bruma guards, he explained his predicament and why he was seeking shelter in Bruma. The countess considered giving him back to the Thalmor, fearing for the safety of her own people. However, she saw reason in his pleas. Even without acknowledging the resemblance between Sythril and his father, the countess saw something within Sythril, and she consequently gifted him with a small house along the city wall. He couldn’t have been more grateful, and the act embedded itself forever in his mind, reminding him of the kindness of the Nords. He strived to do the same, to eliminate the austere stereotype of the Altmer. He became an initiate of the Bruma Mage’s Guild and practiced archery daily at the shooting range of the Fighter’s Guild.
During his twenty-seven short years in Bruma, he became the victim of numerous harassment efforts. Many times, he would return home after a day of study in the mage’s guild to find his home ransacked and torn apart. While he reported this to the countess, she said that there was nothing she could do, for he had no proof as to who had committed the acts. Understanding, but still saddened, he returned home, and picked up the mess, time and time again.
However, even Sythril couldn’t hide from his past for long. He awoke in the middle of the night to find Thalmor agents burning down his front door. Desperate, he clambered through the second-story window and lowered himself down to the ground with a feather fall spell. But the agents were not without intelligence. They quickly appeared around the corner of the alleyway. Panicked, he dashed through the city; narrowly dodging the fire spells the Thalmor agents were haphazardly launching at him. Did she give me away? What about the civilians? I have to get out of here! He managed to confuse the agents slightly by slipping in and out of the alleyways with unnatural speed, even for an elf. He briefly thanked his old master for teaching him the spell that increased his movement for a short while. Soon after, he made his way through the main gate of the city, and he scanned the horizon for options. Down the road to the south, he saw more Thalmor agents making their way towards the city. He immediately glanced towards the city. He felt a twinge of guilt tugging at his gut, but it wasn’t enough to dissuade him from escaping his pursuers. Using a minor message sending spell, he sent his last goodbyes to the countess, and he sprinted as fast as his legs could carry him towards the mountains to the north. His pursuers were equally fast, however, and he barely dodged every spell they sent flying his way. Soon, snow began to blind their vision, and their spells faltered in the blistering cold. But still they pursued, resorting to ice spells, which would be amplified in the cold environment.
In a stroke of luck, Sythril found a chance for escape. He saw a pack of white wolves descend from the left side of the mountain pass. Ready to give up, Sythril began muttering his last wishes. However, the wolves launched themselves headlong towards his pursuers, ignoring Sythril completely. At first, Sythril thought, why aren’t they going for me? But his question was answered for him. He looked at his own clothing, which had been covered from head to toe in heavy snow. The Thalmor agents, who had been using fire spells moments earlier, were still uncovered by snow, and their black robes were much easier to distinguish against the white background. Hampered and slowed, the agents cursed wildly at Sythril, vowing that the Thalmor would catch him, no matter what the cost.
Seizing the opportunity, Sythril pushed himself through the pass, and he descended into the Nordic land of Skyrim. Nevertheless, his luck wouldn’t last for long. Tired and cold, he didn’t notice the Imperial guards waiting patiently along the pass. In the blink of an eye, his hands were bound, and his clothes were stripped and replaced with worn rags. They loaded him into a carriage along with three other people, a Nord in blue and silver armor being an unknown insignia, a well-dressed Nordic man with his mouth gagged, and an anxious, fidgety Nord who kept repeatedly proclaiming that he wasn’t a criminal. And so, Sythril, at the age of 179, began his life in Skyrim… 

Friday, November 11, 2011

And Finally, The End. (Or is it?)

So I went to Google, hoping to find some really thought-provoking images questioning the end of mankind and all things in general.

Instead, I found a plethora of photos depicting everything from Smallville, The Simpsons, various anime pictures, the Green Lantern, and Adolf Hitler.

What all these photos have to do with the phrase " is this the end?" I have no clue. Seriously, none whatsoever.

Anyway, my rambling musings aside, I've found this reading experiment to be enjoyable, and have opened me up (at least slightly) to the world of reading. I try to read anywhere I can, and almost always have some amalgamation of paper resembling a book with me. Now, when it comes to actually reading...

I'll level with you. It is extremely hard. Mind-bogglingly hard. I don't get lost in books like some other people. Even if I really enjoy the story and the writing style, I find myself taking weeks upon weeks to finish a book that other people knocked out in two days time.

And you know what? I don't see any problem with that. Just how everybody has their own style of writing, everybody has their own style of reading. Some can devour a book a day, while others have to digest and chew on the pages like there are slowly eating a piece of prize steak at a five star restaurant. I don't, however, chew on my pages. That's just gross. And rude. Am I blabbing too much? *sigh* Me and my ramblings...

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Inspiration Starters

They say a picture is worth a thousand words. Those words couldn't ring more true.

So, I've decided to peruse the "fantasy" images of Google and other websites to see if I could find any inspiration.


They also say that you can't wait for inspiration, you have to search far and wide for it.


If you get any ideas from these pictures, feel free to let me know. I'll write whatever ideas I get...



 A fading sunset, a withering tree, a depressed and seemingly passive female protagonist in a worn, satin wedding dress, which flows around her and envelops her like the current from a soft and kindly river.

She's waiting for someone. She doesn't know whom. She's locked herself away, in hopes that someone will come for her.

They never come. When she is suddenly released, she doesn't know what to feel, how to think, how to act. It's as if she has been born again...

Cursed with innate magical abilities, chastised by her mother and father, betrayed by her own brother, and sentenced to a life of exile.

She wishes nothing more than to bring her family to justice, and drag them down with her. She is ruthless, demanding, and merciless to anyone who tries to prevent her from achieving her goals.

But her plans for revenge take a drastic turn. She learns of a deadly curse that has fallen across the region, and to make matters worse, she learns that her family is supposedly behind it. She also discovers that she isn't the only one in her family with magical abilities, and that she may be in more danger than she had initially thought...



(Many more to come...)

Monday, November 7, 2011

Simultaneous Contradictions

Quite the inspirational picture...
It's too late to change my mind now. I'm already too far ahead in my Nano novel to change stories now.

But I'm starting to doubt myself once again.

Not because I don't like the story I'm writing now, but because I don't feel like my heart is in it. In all honesty, I haven't reached the one story that makes me go, "That is the one."

Or, if I have, I haven't acknowledged it yet.

Whatever the case, I'm torn. Torn between my roots in fantasy and heroic quests and magical swords and whatever else may tickle my fancy, and my urge to create a compelling and unique psychological novel that can reach the level of Donnie Darko (hopefully without the cult-like side effects).

I write my fantasy ideas, but I worry about cliches typical to fantasy-based novels. I write my psychological idea, but I worry about whether it's too confusing or not getting the point across. Eventually, I find myself wondering (I do that quite often) if I'm even fit to be a true writer at all.

I have ideas for both, and both chill me to the bone when I think about them, and where I want to to take the stories as they develop. But in order to develop ideas, you have to write them. A contradiction, one might say. And a mighty fine big one, at that.

"Break away from everybody. Break away from everything. If you can't stand the way this place is, take yourself to higher places." - My motto for this month (brownie points if you understand the reference).

Friday, November 4, 2011

The City of Gears

(An original poem by Ty Thomas)

Alive, but dying
Free, but shackled
United, but torn
unreal reality

The black ash billowed towards the sky
The gears and pistons pounding
They wander the city roads, mindless
unaware of all around them

The heart, three large and strong
the lynch pin of our world
should it fail, and cease to beat
we all shall fall, we all shall die

We fight to keep it turning
and thus, we have survived
We've lost ourselves, we've lost our minds
We've even lost the heavens

But as it turns, nobody knows
we go about our lives
unaware of what we've lost
unaware of all the costs

We see the heart, we call it good
it turns to keep us breathing
its' patterns blind us, keep us hidden
from the truth behind the facade

The gears, they turn, three large, three strong
dictating our lives right in front of our eyes

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Sleep Eludes Me

Finally found a picture, and it doesn't even make sense... 

Yes, I know what you are thinking right now. Self-proclaimed Psychic, Ph.D.

"Ty! Why are you up so late?!"

Well, let's rundown a list, shall we?

1. Blood Drive tomorrow? No
2. Test tomorrow? Not a major one
3. Stressful day? Not really
4. Feeling sick? Was Tuesday, am not now

Yeah, I that's all the reasons I could think off.

But no, in all seriousness, I've been up really, really, really late writing my story. I am taking part in the annual event known globally as NaNoWriMo (for those of you who are less geeky, that stands for National Novel Writing Month). It is simply a program that challenges you to write 50,000 words over the course of a month. Now, most people would look at that and think, "OMGeezus! That is impossible!" And to some respects, it is. In fact, from personal experience, I will say that it is pretty dang hard. But no, not impossible.

For the last two times I've attempted this, I've failed. Miserably. A veritable, boiling soup pot of terrible.

But not this time. I may not reach 50,000. But I will sure try. So goes the Girl Scout motto my sisters so frequently used to quote, "On my honor, I will try." Compared to the Boy Scouts, whose motto stands, "On my Honor, I will. . . "

But that debate is another topic in its entirety. Ask me about it, and you'll get about a two minute rant. It's loads of fun. Trust me. *winky face*